2.5 Weeks!

In exactly 2.5 weeks I will be leaving for Bolivia.

This week, it started to hit me: 

I have never left this country.

I am traveling alone. 

I will be living in a foreign country. 

I don't know exactly what I will be doing. 

I am still a teenager. 

...Am I crazy? 

The answer: No, my God is CRAZY faithful! 

I question Bolivia and God quickly sweeps them away with reminders of His faithfulness. 

To anyone who has questioned my sanity as I volunteer in Bolivia, here is some comfort (this is just as much for me as it is for you!): 

"Where can I go from your spirit? 

Where can I flee from your presence? 

If I go up to the heavens, you are there;

if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. 

If I rise on the wings of dawn,

if I settle on the far side of the sea,

even there your hand will guide me,

your right hand will hold me fast.

If I say, "Surely darkness will hide me

and the light become night around me,"

even the darkness will not be dark to you;

the night will shine like the day, 

for darkness is as light to you." 

-Psalm 139:7-12

And, some inspiration from Pinterest: 

"He tends his flock like a shepherd:

He gathers the lambs in his arms

and carriers them close to his heart;

he gently leads those that have young"

-Isaiah 40:11

"Lift your eyes and look to the heavens:

Who created these?

He who brings out the starry host one by one,

and calls them each by name.

Because of his great power and mighty strength,

not one of them is missing."

-Isaiah 40:26

After having a nice long conversation with my mom, I believe that my feelings are results of Satan attacking me. He is trying to discourage me and turn my mind from the things that really matter: glorifying God. So yes, I may not be able to perform incredible surgeries or be able to have a flawless conversation with someone in Spanish, but my God uses the weak and foolish. I don't know what God has in store for me but I have faith that He wants me in Bolivia and will use me where He wants. All I can say is "Send me!" and He will take care of the rest.

I would deeply appreciate prayer during the next couple weeks. I have finals and am feeling very burnt out. Pray that my strength would be renewed and that God would give me strength to fight untruthful ideas that Satan is putting in my head.